Wedding Crashers

Here I was, standing in the church I had always wished I would. The intricate details in the stone and glass that surrounded us was truly magnificent. The white dress wasn't much, itwas in fact a strapless dress, it fitted nicely to my body which I was thankful for it doing. At the hips it split into two fabrics, the same as the rest of the dress and then chiffon over the top. It reached my feet which stood bare because the thought of standing in heels was hell yet alone walking down the Isle.

Thankfully I met my husband go be on the other end in front of both of our families. Little was I to know that someone objected to our big day. A very old clingy ex. He burst through the doors sending a small gust of wind throughout. 

"I object" he screams at the top of his voice as he runs up the Isle,  the witnesses letting out sounds of shock and disappointment.

"It should be me." He pleads as he stands on my left as my to be husband holds my hand.

"I don't wish to marry him, please continue." I say trying to forget the intrusion of my big day. Yet it became incredibly hard as he begun tugging at my arm, trying to pull it free of the hand of the man I wanted to marry. 

"This should be me" he cried again, he was clearly beginning to choke back tears when I finally looked to him.

"You were a one week relationship when I was 16, nothing more than a rebound." I mutter, he looks hurt by the comment but it was the truth. 

He pleads again that it should be him but this time my partner turns to him clearly no longer willing to let me be pestered by this man 

"But it's not." He growls and with a smooth movement lands a heavy punch into my ex's nose. He stood shocked for a moment before clenching to his nose where blood begun to drip.

"Get him out of here." He says turning back to me, handing a red and slightly swollen hand back to me. Thankfully two of my lovely cousins took him under the arms and dragged him up the Isle and out of the church.

The ceremony continued just after they took their seats once more. Happily married we walk out of the church for photos, standing in the blood trail he had left on his way out. 

Top Ten Tuesday - 10 Of My Most Recent 5 Star Reads

Definertley Dead - Charlaine Harris

Dead As A Doornail - Charlaine Harris

Dead To The World - Charlaine Harris

Both Of Me - Jonathan Friesen

Risen - M.T.Miller

The Dean Machine - Dylan Lee Peters

Will Grayson Will Grayson - John Green

The Humans - Matt Haig

Itch - Simon Mayo

Everyday - David Levitan

Top Ten Tuesday is a weekly meme hosted by The Broke and The Bookish. 

Eyes Like Lighthouses When The Boats Come Home - Dane Cobain

Synopsis

Eyes Like Lighthouses is Dane Cobain’s first book of poetry, distilled from the sweat of a thousand memorised performances in this reality and others. It’s not for the faint-hearted.

“I’ve never seen anyone do a stream of consciousness piece as talented as that. Very impressed.” – Mark Allard-Will, author of Saskatch-A-Man and co-founder of Cuckoo’s Nest Press

“Dane’s poetry is a multi-layered spiral of the macabre, quirky humour and disjointed imagery. Not only does he make you think, he captures the small forgotten moments of everyday life.” – Nikki Dudley, co-editor of Streetcake Magazine

“…[Dane] combines concrete detail with socioeconomic concerns.” – Lorna Wood, associate editor of Gemini Magazine


Review:

So here I am again with a poetry read, it was a great break from my usual young adult and fantasy reads. Dane contacted me with options of works to read. I chose all of them after finding out I was able to.

Eyes Like Lighthouses When The Boats Come Home was a refreshing read, truthful, uncensored raw poetry. Each piece an insight into a topic of the world.

The poems were pure and powerful, I fell in love with several pieces, I could relate to them easily and that was one thing I loved so much when I was reading these pieces.

One piece named; Like A Landlocked Light-house had been one I had loved a lot, so much I went back to re read it a few more times before writing this review.

I can say that some people will not like the truth written within the read, or the language which is used but I found that both of them really made the collection of poems all that more of a need to read.

I can say it's a clear 5/5 frim me, and a definite read for anyone who wants to see everything in a truthful brutal poetic light.

Fist Bump Feeling

The undeniable feeling in your stomach, the butterflies, the fear.
You bounce your feet, your whole body shaking
The clock ticks down, the end coming quick
Stomach turning, churning.
Chills running up and down your body
79:59, 80:00, your heart lightens, the urge to cry washing over you, you won, they won.
You dance a little, pride coursing through your veins, you feel the way they do, patriotic, overwhelmed and utterly speechless.
You watch them celebrate, hugs, pats on backs, piggy back rides.
Its just that fist bump feeling.



This post is all about the winning and winners of 2016 RBS Six Nations, the emotions I felt and others felt as the clock ticked over to 80 minutes and we knew we had won the Grand Slam not only this years Six Nations.

Top Ten Tuesday - : Ten Books I Really Love But Feel Like I Haven't Talked About Enough/In A While

If I Stay - Gayle Forman

Hell's Horizon - D.B.Shan

A Monster Calls - Patrick Ness

An Abundance Of Katherines - John Green

The Perks Of Being A Wallflower - Stephen Chbosky

The One Thing - Marci Lyn Curtis

Geek Girl All That Glitters - Holly Smale

The Dean Machine - Dylan Lee Peters

Memphis Hoodoo Murders - Kathryn Rogers

Everything Everything - Nicola Yoon

Top Ten Tuesday is a weekly meme hosted by The Broke and The Bookish

Reasons To Stay Alive - Matt Haig

Synopsis:

What does it mean to feel truly alive?

This is the true story of how Matt Haig came through crisis, triumphed over mental illness that almost destroyed him and learned to live again. Moving, funny and joyous, Reasons To Stay Alive is more than a memoir. It is a book about making the most of your time on earth.

Review:

Well what can I say? It took me a little while to finish this book, I had barely any time to read physical books from my shelves as I found myself taking on more and more Review requests but when I bought this book it took me a week to find the courage to open up the covers. I was not scared to read it as such, I guess I was just scared that I could understand everything Matt Haig spoke about.

To myself I have a right to feel scared about understanding every word Matt had written, because to me in my own mind, no one had ever suffered those things I had, but reading Reasons To Stay Alive, I became aware that I was never alone in the things I had suffered, and than my feelings and situations that I had experienced were in no way unique to me, they had been felt and experienced somewhere else too.

Like the synopsis says, the book is moving, funny and joyous, I could not agree more. The book covers so many areas throughout the struggle Matt faced with hid Depression and Anxiety, to read chapters like Things Depression Says To You left me feeling somewhat light in the chest, to know that someone truly understood, and not only that but to know that readers out there who may not be suffering from either Depression or Anxiety can now have an insight and help by offering out a hand to those who need it.

There are pages and phrases which really struck a chord with me which will cause me to re visit the book whenever the time is right to, reading this book felt like a warm hug offered from an understanding being, a warm hand to hold extended from the support of others.

There is a lot that could be said about this book, I could write a 6 pages 10 sized font essay about the book, its contents and Matt and I will resist that urge as much as I can. To Matt, a man to whom I extend a warm understanding hand to, an offer of support and encouragement through the days. To Andrea who with the power of love, support and friendship, guided, supported and encouraged Matt to the stage he is at.

A no doubt rating 5/5 a work of pure honesty and emotion. A recommendation to anyone, and I mean anyone, its a needed read to increase the understanding and break down the stigma of Anxiety and Depression alongside other mental illnesses that exist. I hope those who have read, are in the process of reading or will read this book will understand and enjoy this book as much as I did having passed the fear of  understanding everything it speaks of.

Sock

His curled nails scrape against the slabs as he charges backwards and forwards in the pursuit of a single and unclaimed Christmas sock. Backwards and forwards he goes, each time taking the sock back to a single person who in amusement, throws it into the distance before watching him closely as he darts off after it.

"Get in, the heating is on and the windows and the door is open." A voice echoes from the close by building.Climbing to her feet as the sock ends up in her possession once again. Soggy from its few minutes use she doesn't hold it too hard in the prison of a hand.

Inviting warmth hugs her, the small being taking off out of view into other company. The door closed and the windows too, the room begun to warm quickly, the cool outside was gladly welcomed in times like this.

She tosses the sock aside in front of the washer and takes a drink before straightening up her dressing gown which seemed to hold her together. It was a comfort for her,  the purple fabric was still soft but after its years on her, was worn but functioning as a comfort.

Walking through the rooms, pressing a single kiss to her earlier companions nose before leaving his company like he had hers. Climbing a hill to another comfort, a place where the minutes of sock throwing could replay in her mind, calming her, comforting her, the emotions soothing the aches both on the surface and deep within her.